...have passed since my ex fiancee passed away. March 30th, 2003, at about this time in the morning. Remembering things like these really makes you look back in time and evaluate your own life, where you've gone and what you're doing now. Instead of lamenting over the past, I am using this day to do some soul-searching and keeping myself in check with the future. Hence, I'd like to ask all of you: what are your plans for the future? Are you where you want to be in your own life? Do you have any regrets? Do you ever question "what if"?
"We are exactly where we want to be in life, for where we are is based on our conscious decisions in the past."
How can you say something like that and not continue. Now I'm very curious though I know I shouldn't be.
Mostly circumstances around me shaped my life. But I know most won't belive this. I hate those people who say you can anything if you put your mind into it. CRAP!
But I do have one regret. It's related to this girl I was in loved and still am. Long story. A lamer's tale.
we shouldn't be asking ourselves "what if", we really should be asking "what will become of". if we are constantly looking back on the past, how is it possible to move forward in life. live for the day man, but don't let the day die young.
Well, I feel very lucky that I've been given such a healthy base to stand on, in terms of my "setting". But I think I wasted much of my childhood because I was shy and smart, which is not a good combination at school. I hated school, and I'm so glad that I'm at university where achievement is taken in a much better view.
Around the end of 6th form I was still a shy, nervous boy, but over those summer holidays (2002-2003) I think I changed somehow, and I'm not sure how, cos when I went back to school I was so much more confident of myself. Perhaps because I realised I'd only have one year left at school... anyway lotsa stuff has been going right for me since then, which makes me think that had I been more outgoing earlier I could have had a childhood to remember. Perhaps that's why I don't like kids...
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