04-20-2004, 01:17 AM
Dearest all of the QB45/QB71 community,
HELLO TO YOU ALL ( ! ), and it is the *first* time in about more than a month that I have ever posted in this âGeneralâ section of these forums here.
Now, please listen real closely as I intimately and _literally_ share my personal story with you on how I dealt with one personal rejection after another that took place since this very year first began.
Ever since before the start of 2004, I suddenly had this vague, ridiculous fear of doing something wrong â BELIEVE IT OR NOT â even when I was trying to do something right, too! I mean, even from just this past weekend (the weekend of April 17, 2004) since my last post before this one on the QBasicNews.com forums, I literally felt like that if I have done something wrong (or when even any person tries to finds something to argue about on my post(s) and/or assumes that I have done something wrong, as well), then I tried to think that people donât even love me anymore at all, which perhaps explained why I had to move a couple of sheets of paper apart quite slowly but surely to reveal what the words were on what some of them have said about my last post! And I felt that STUPID fear torment me and beat me over the head and saying to me that âyouâre doing something wrong, Adigun, youâre a BIG failureâ over, and over, and over, and over again and then plenty (and dearest God, I have suffered severely!)! But you know what, from just last night, I have had *FLAT-ENOUGH* of that fear that I just wanted to rip it plain apart. I mean, I was rather plain so angry ( :x ! ) at it, I had to get it out TOTALLY of my system and cast it completely down and out, rather instead of me being lead by those feelings period. In addition, I casted all of my anger over on the Lord, too! BOY, THAT ALL MADE ME SO FREE AND GOOD ALL OVER!! !! You know why? Because I just found out for myself personally that fear is sin. And why is fear sin? Because it already has torment just like that (snap!), all 100%. I am *not* even talking about any religious-based stuff at all, but rather, I am relating something to you wonderful ladies and gentlemen that is going to build you up in an enlightening and encouraging way! !!
You know something, people, speaking of which, I believe that one of the most senselessly stupidest mistakes that we can even make on our own, even in private, too â whether the head of the forums or otherwise â is to just simply act like we *do not* have any problems at all, and just âlaa-de-da-de-da-de-daâ our way, giving the other people NOTHING AT ALL to even relate to, ever. That is pure bull gone to seed, all because of that (it is like, :barf:, you know?)! Instead, I believe personally with ALL 100% of my heart, honesty, and boldness that we all need to relate to people and say, âLook, if you can make it, I can make it! I mean, if he/she can be a blessing to somebody in secret even while he/she has got some problems in my life (even if he/she does not feel like it period!), then I can be a DEFINITE blessing to somebody in secret even while he/she has got some problems in my life, whether I feel like it at all or not! If you can overcome your own personal problems, then I CAN OVERCOME MY OWN ONES AS WELL! !â, because then, that makes us *MUCH* better people towards others, and especially towards ourselves, also!! ^_^ ! If you donât believe me, then why donât you just start giving it a drive for yourself and see what happens. COME ON NOW, THIS COULD SAVE YOU A WHOLE LOT OF TURMOIL AND HEARTACHE IF YOU JUST FOLLOW THIS CAREFULLY!
I am not putting you down or anything to begin with. I am rather just pouring out my heart to you the *best possible* way that I know how in order to help you overcome some personal stuff you are going through, all because I love you all and I want to do all that I can to be a dead-serious blessing ON-PURPOSE to you all, to build you up, to help you confront and get real with yourselves and with other people.
See you later.
HELPING YOU OVERCOME SOME THINGS IN YOUR LIFE,
Adigun Azikiwe Polack
One of the Founders of âAura Flowâ
Continuing Developer of âFrantic Journeyâ
Current Developer of âStar Angelic Sluggerâ
P.S. Sure I do not *do* everything right the first time, and that I have even done some of the most point-blank GOOFIEST things that are like phhhhht ( ), you know? But you know what, I am learning to do something right and encouraging to bless you and help you out, like this post that you have just read. I *sure* hope that you learn from it and let it inspire you to do something good! ;*) !!
______________________________________
N E V E R ⢠F O O L ⢠W I T H ⢠M Y ⢠W R I T I N G .
It is my *well-known* trademark, so please learn to get used to it now.
HELLO TO YOU ALL ( ! ), and it is the *first* time in about more than a month that I have ever posted in this âGeneralâ section of these forums here.
Now, please listen real closely as I intimately and _literally_ share my personal story with you on how I dealt with one personal rejection after another that took place since this very year first began.
Ever since before the start of 2004, I suddenly had this vague, ridiculous fear of doing something wrong â BELIEVE IT OR NOT â even when I was trying to do something right, too! I mean, even from just this past weekend (the weekend of April 17, 2004) since my last post before this one on the QBasicNews.com forums, I literally felt like that if I have done something wrong (or when even any person tries to finds something to argue about on my post(s) and/or assumes that I have done something wrong, as well), then I tried to think that people donât even love me anymore at all, which perhaps explained why I had to move a couple of sheets of paper apart quite slowly but surely to reveal what the words were on what some of them have said about my last post! And I felt that STUPID fear torment me and beat me over the head and saying to me that âyouâre doing something wrong, Adigun, youâre a BIG failureâ over, and over, and over, and over again and then plenty (and dearest God, I have suffered severely!)! But you know what, from just last night, I have had *FLAT-ENOUGH* of that fear that I just wanted to rip it plain apart. I mean, I was rather plain so angry ( :x ! ) at it, I had to get it out TOTALLY of my system and cast it completely down and out, rather instead of me being lead by those feelings period. In addition, I casted all of my anger over on the Lord, too! BOY, THAT ALL MADE ME SO FREE AND GOOD ALL OVER!! !! You know why? Because I just found out for myself personally that fear is sin. And why is fear sin? Because it already has torment just like that (snap!), all 100%. I am *not* even talking about any religious-based stuff at all, but rather, I am relating something to you wonderful ladies and gentlemen that is going to build you up in an enlightening and encouraging way! !!
You know something, people, speaking of which, I believe that one of the most senselessly stupidest mistakes that we can even make on our own, even in private, too â whether the head of the forums or otherwise â is to just simply act like we *do not* have any problems at all, and just âlaa-de-da-de-da-de-daâ our way, giving the other people NOTHING AT ALL to even relate to, ever. That is pure bull gone to seed, all because of that (it is like, :barf:, you know?)! Instead, I believe personally with ALL 100% of my heart, honesty, and boldness that we all need to relate to people and say, âLook, if you can make it, I can make it! I mean, if he/she can be a blessing to somebody in secret even while he/she has got some problems in my life (even if he/she does not feel like it period!), then I can be a DEFINITE blessing to somebody in secret even while he/she has got some problems in my life, whether I feel like it at all or not! If you can overcome your own personal problems, then I CAN OVERCOME MY OWN ONES AS WELL! !â, because then, that makes us *MUCH* better people towards others, and especially towards ourselves, also!! ^_^ ! If you donât believe me, then why donât you just start giving it a drive for yourself and see what happens. COME ON NOW, THIS COULD SAVE YOU A WHOLE LOT OF TURMOIL AND HEARTACHE IF YOU JUST FOLLOW THIS CAREFULLY!
I am not putting you down or anything to begin with. I am rather just pouring out my heart to you the *best possible* way that I know how in order to help you overcome some personal stuff you are going through, all because I love you all and I want to do all that I can to be a dead-serious blessing ON-PURPOSE to you all, to build you up, to help you confront and get real with yourselves and with other people.
See you later.
HELPING YOU OVERCOME SOME THINGS IN YOUR LIFE,
Adigun Azikiwe Polack
One of the Founders of âAura Flowâ
Continuing Developer of âFrantic Journeyâ
Current Developer of âStar Angelic Sluggerâ
P.S. Sure I do not *do* everything right the first time, and that I have even done some of the most point-blank GOOFIEST things that are like phhhhht ( ), you know? But you know what, I am learning to do something right and encouraging to bless you and help you out, like this post that you have just read. I *sure* hope that you learn from it and let it inspire you to do something good! ;*) !!
______________________________________
N E V E R ⢠F O O L ⢠W I T H ⢠M Y ⢠W R I T I N G .
It is my *well-known* trademark, so please learn to get used to it now.
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