06-08-2003, 11:21 PM
There is a very large part of me that doesnt want to survive in this world. And the harder everyone makes life for me, the easier it is for me to just let go, and let whatever happens happen. I can't will myself to get a job or find a place to live, or even to help my girlfriend out in her desperate time of need.
I am a result of bad parents, you see. You know all of those people who aren't mentally capable of surviving on their own? I'm not talking about the mentally challenged, but simply those who haven't been taught how to survive? I'm a borderline. I'm the one who barely knows enough to know what's going on. But I simply can't do anything about it. I can't will or motivate myself to do any work. Not for money, not for love, not even for simple survival.
Now how the fuck is this possible? Isn't it human nature to want to survive? Isn't it the nature of every living being? Then why, in that case, can I not even will myself to go get a simple low-paying job?
Come to think of it, I'm probably the result of our modern day's society's carelessness with our youth. Nobody teaches children anything we need to know anymore. Morals and ethics aren't even standard anymore. Barely anyone has a conscience anymore. So how are we expected to survive in the world? I think it's greed. We are expected to want more and better of everything. This explains why young adults have the best cars and jobs and houses, and the best of everything. We are driven by greed. But what about the few of us who don't give a rats ass about things like cars and houses? What about us who have no motivation? What are we driven by?
Right now, the only reason I'm alive is because I want to get revenge on everyone who has wronged me. Since I have no conscience, my options are unlimited. I can get revenge on my girlfriend's parents and my parents by simply not helping take care of her and her baby. I can get revenge on my parents by making my life miserable. I can get revenge on almost anyone I want using these methods. How do I get revenge on people who have indirectly wronged me? Simple. I dedicate my life to destroying civilization. Once civilization is destroyed, I am free to become a dictator, and make all their lives miserable.
Am I insane? Probably. Is any of this going to actually happen? Most of it, up until the whole world-domination idea. Even though you may be thinking "wow, this kid is REALLY messed up", you have to remember that a lot of our youth is just like me. I bet that in a few years, youths all over will be dropping like flies because they have no reason to live. Just keep in mind that those without a conscience have nothing to lose.
I am a result of bad parents, you see. You know all of those people who aren't mentally capable of surviving on their own? I'm not talking about the mentally challenged, but simply those who haven't been taught how to survive? I'm a borderline. I'm the one who barely knows enough to know what's going on. But I simply can't do anything about it. I can't will or motivate myself to do any work. Not for money, not for love, not even for simple survival.
Now how the fuck is this possible? Isn't it human nature to want to survive? Isn't it the nature of every living being? Then why, in that case, can I not even will myself to go get a simple low-paying job?
Come to think of it, I'm probably the result of our modern day's society's carelessness with our youth. Nobody teaches children anything we need to know anymore. Morals and ethics aren't even standard anymore. Barely anyone has a conscience anymore. So how are we expected to survive in the world? I think it's greed. We are expected to want more and better of everything. This explains why young adults have the best cars and jobs and houses, and the best of everything. We are driven by greed. But what about the few of us who don't give a rats ass about things like cars and houses? What about us who have no motivation? What are we driven by?
Right now, the only reason I'm alive is because I want to get revenge on everyone who has wronged me. Since I have no conscience, my options are unlimited. I can get revenge on my girlfriend's parents and my parents by simply not helping take care of her and her baby. I can get revenge on my parents by making my life miserable. I can get revenge on almost anyone I want using these methods. How do I get revenge on people who have indirectly wronged me? Simple. I dedicate my life to destroying civilization. Once civilization is destroyed, I am free to become a dictator, and make all their lives miserable.
Am I insane? Probably. Is any of this going to actually happen? Most of it, up until the whole world-domination idea. Even though you may be thinking "wow, this kid is REALLY messed up", you have to remember that a lot of our youth is just like me. I bet that in a few years, youths all over will be dropping like flies because they have no reason to live. Just keep in mind that those without a conscience have nothing to lose.
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